I hate how the majority of people I know just seek to cause arguments - okay, ‘majority’ was maybe a slight exaggeration. But it never ceases to amaze me how some people can go out their way to want to just argue.

For someone to physically go out of their way to partake in an argument which doesn’t initially involve them is something I don’t understand. It’s fucking stupid, especially when you could spend your time a lot more productive then going on a roll because you’re in a rife mood and ‘no one is going to stop you.’ All this shit about how ‘once you start, you’re not gonna’ finish.. Blahhh…’ Yea, everyone’s heard it all before and all you’re proving is that you have the capability to portray the fact you’re a massive nob-head in a more obvious way than I thought.

I’m not going to say I don’t hold grudges and that I let EVERYTHING go, but it must be sad and horrible to live your life holding onto something which wasn’t anything to do with you or holding onto something which happened a while ago - time goes on for a reason. No one is any more of an ethical God than the next person but for other people to preach morals, the people who don’t even abide their own ‘policy’ is ridiculous. It’s as though people have stints of majority in their life and ‘forget’ things for the better of themselves, but when it doesn’t suit them, it just surfaces. I’d like to believe we have an an unconscious mind for a reason, an unconscious mind in which we repress things we don’t want to forget, things which simply don’t concern us and I don’t understand why people just hold on to things their whole life. It must be sad to live your life for something which has happened before. People never want to know a people with a stigma but forget that they have their own. I’m sick of seeing people progress through their life, miserably because they can’t let go of even the smallest of things. People who day in, day out complain about how difficult rubbish is. A car is only gonna’ go slower and waste more energy with a weight attached. Blahhhhh?!?!?!

It disappointing me that problems are caused by different generations, and with hope the new generation are to fix that problem. It disappoints me the most that our generation is one which is to fix problems which where left. 

‘Governments which dislike young mothers but disagree with abortion. Governments which stand for higher education, but raise tuition/Uni fee’s on a yearly basis. Governments which praise peace, but endorse war.’
 

Everyone is just a huge massive fucking dickhead. I go on a trip of well, what I’d consider a trip of a life time and surprisingly I can’t wait to go. More so for the fact I can’t wait to just get away from some absolute fucking dickheads. 

I’ve spent too long around people of a certain type and I try to get away from it all the fucking time. I don’t want to start thinking I’m right back where I started.

I don’t even know. It’s Fathers Day soon and it’s always a fucking shit time of the year I guess. I normally just plod along because well there’s no point torturing yourself over something that wasn’t your fault. But it depends what we’d be talking about here. I guess it’s not my fault my Dad passed away, well I’m certain it isn’t. But I guess it’s my fault I wasn’t as close to him as I’d of liked to be. Maybe I was close to him as I possibly could be but because I feel like I’m missing out on time I guess I thought I’d of had, I feel like I’m missing out. It really does go to show that well life doesn’t really stop for anyone I guess. Blah. I know it’s pretty rich complaining about problems then to say ‘I’m sick of people complaining about problems which aren’t even ‘problems.” I’m a believer in the philosophy that a problem of someone else’s may merely be an inconvenience of yours. But it gets to a point where it’s pretty depressing that people have the nerve to create a stigma for you which is just utterly fucking bullshit. I mean what even gives you the right to be so hypocritical, because maybe the world owes you something? There’s people out there, worse off than I’d even want to imagine who don’t ask for a single thing yet people prance about cussing the fuck out of everything. I know it’s the ‘wrong’ interpretation but I believe the story of Adam and Eve is a fine specimen that people can come in the form of snakes and completely ruin you. 

So, I have my first test tomorrow - Chemistry. It’s been a pretty good start, feeling confident. Loving all my work and how I’m doing in all of my classes.
I can’t stand the place, I hate where I study, but I feel it was the best education for me, so I’m sure I can put up with it.

Things are going pretty well, although it’s 2013, which I never eagerly anticipated I’m having quite a good year. I was never really looking forward to this year because I’m not a fan of ‘sweeping’ change. For time, I hounded myself that I needed to change. I  got myself together and cut out a lot of shit. I wouldn’t say I ‘changed’ as a person. I’m still the same person. IF U DNT LIKE THAT, NORRRRRASSED.

I’m pretty much content being the nobhead I’ve been for the past couple of years. The people who are happy with me being a nobhead, well are happy. I’m pretty much happy with who I am. I wasn’t happy because I hounded myself to change for quite a while thinking I need to change, I NEED TO MOTIVATE MYSELF FOR SUCH SWEEPING CHANGE. When really.. If such sweeping change was in order, it’d of happened without a matter of choice. So you know what, I’m not gonna’ force myself to change and carry on thinking I’m ‘unhappy’ with who I fucking am! 

2012? Well I have no opinion really. 2013? I still have no opinion really. I suppose if I enter a year with such a bad attitude all I’m going to get is a bad year, but you know what.. I haven’t had a bad attitude, but I’m taking it as it comes. These next 2 years at sixth form can’t end quicker. I’m nearly at the stage I wanted to be, it’s gonna’ be graft, it’s gonna’ be tiring but I’m so gonna’ do it.

I’m probably just rambling on, but quite a bit has pissed me off today. I’ve had a GREAT 2013 so far. It’s been great. I’m happy with how my life has moved forward so far. I’m refraining from saying it but yea I never had such a good 2012, done a few things I regret but you know what.. I’m not gonna’ be that God damn constant reminder I use to be, and that I use to be sick of. Shit happens, things can’t change so well embrace it. I mean I’m not forgetting about the shit I done, I guess it was a valued lesson but I’m not gonna’ constantly remind myself cause well what’s the point ey. I’m not gonna’ drag my own mood down, through with this shit.

I suppose the best part about 2013 has been the uninvolved people. Okay I’ve missed quite a lot of people but the fact I’m finally living my life with no MAJOR BAD influences and everyone being involved it feels great. 

Well, I suppose everyone gets a bit of happiness now and then and I suppose anyone who tries to ruin it is a heartless, bottomless, hollow twat. Which I do not refrain from saying. I wouldn’t dare ever ruin anyone’s happiness, let them be content, let them go on with it. Cause I’d say I’ve done a pretty good job of making sure people are okay, and doing favours for people in this school year. So well, I’m glad no one has yet. I also hope no one does, have to stick their fucking nose in either.  

Maaaan, some people got some major fucking nerve.
Ah.